Hello all, I just joined this forum I didn’t know about it until now. I’m after some advice and I don’t just want you to tell me to leave him. I know it would probably be for the best but I just can’t. He won’t let me and there’s too much here for me. Thankfully we don’t have any children but I’ve got my fur babies. My dog is like my emotional support dog she knows when I’m upset, she comes and cuddles me. When my partner is getting aggressive she sits and watches and cries. As soon as it’s over she comes and puts her head around my neck and gives a hug. It’s pathetic but I just cannot leave without her it’s not an option for me. I can’t go to my parents house as they’ve already got a dog. But I cannot leave her she’s helped me through so much and so many bad thoughts of ending my life. Anyway, I’ve been with my partner now for 4 years, the first two were great, he treated me like a princess. I couldn’t fault him one bit. He did everything for me.

About two years ago it changed. He started accusing me of all sorts. Constantly. I got so drunk one night and passed out and he took advantage of me. Started hitting me if he felt I was staring at someone on the tv. I can’t leave the hiuse without him. I can’t wear what I want to wear. I have no friends left as I’m not aloud to speak to them. He says everyone of my friends are slags and will encourage me to go behind his back. They wouldn’t. But this is what he says. He takes my phone off me when we argue so I cant call my mother. My mom knows what’s gone on to a certain extent and I’ve told her it’s stopped because I fear if she gets too involved he will hurt her.

Basically the advice I need is his friend called an ambulance for me because I was feeling very negative and had thoughts of taking my life the ambulance came and did my obs etc and they noticed bruising on my arm and face and asked what was it I said nothing (he was sat there) they asked him to move and asked me on my own still denied it so they told me to wait nearby and got his friend alone and his friend said he had been hitting me and there was sexual abuse previously. The ambulance arranged me to see a doctor that night so I went and denied things even though they saw the bruises and had notes from the ambulance and she phoned the police. Then police came to the house and I denied everything now I’ve been told there’s an ongoing investigation. How can I get them off my back?

Thank you