dear C.H

you have been my first love, my first kiss, my first touch. because of you, my moving out was awful, I have suffered for 10 months and for 2 months, I still do even if it is less painful...sometimes I think about you and it makes me feel down. because you found a new girlfriend and I am still single. You always show yourself on social medias and that pinches my heart. I still dont know if i regret for meeting you last year. however I am thankful for letting me know how pleasing it is to be kissed, hugged, touched. but you hurt me more than made me feel happy. you desappointed me by cheating your girlfriend with me. i didnt know i was in kove with you (was I??). i have suffered so much i think i really loved you. you know how to talk to girl so weel. you know what to tell her to make her feel she is special to you, important. i wish to have this gift too. you are a beau parleur. you deserve to have awful and complicated relationships because you are complicated and you make things not easy. i blocked you but sometimes I wish to see you in the street, i wish you start regretting me. and sometimes i wish we could become friends. you changed something in me. you changed my way of seeing life and it scares me. I wish you to be unhappy. I wish to totally forget you and find someone else, who will love me for real this time, and who will respect me. I hope your new girlfriend will dump you and you will start thinking about what you are...and we do not play with other's feelings. you just fucked my year, I have never been so unhappy and lost and all I want is to make you regret. I hope life is on its way to teach you some living with others' rules. You will know soon what I have been through and I hope you the worst. Bye Bye