History Of Sexual Abuse & Fears Of Breastfeeding

I'm not sure how I want too start this story... But breastfeeding has been on my mind since the beginning of my pregnancy and I am now 30 weeks the time has almost come... Whenever I was younger I was sexually abused by my biological "father" most of the abuse involved my breasts.. He himself would latch his sick mouth onto my nipples and boobs and do whatever he wanted. I felt as if my body weren't even mine. I feel repulsive & used & abused. He is no longer in my life my stepdad is :) Which he is my adoptive loving caring father I even carry his name now... but the thought of breast feeding my daughter still gives me anxiety I want too breastfeed her but it's something in my body telling me "No" like this fear I can't overcome but want too. Idk what too do or who too talk too. I figured I would ask some of you moms for your input. If you're also a victim and had this problem. Did you breastfeed? Did you not? What did you do? What would you do?