I woke up feeling different today for some reason, something just didn’t feel right. I called my drs office and due to my history of 3 miscarriages within the past year he told me to come in for an emergency ultrasound.

I am today 67 days pregnant, 9w 5d and as I’m getting ready for the ultrasound I pray and pray that my miracle baby is ok!

I look at the screen and see my baby but immediately notice not heartbeat. I ask the technician: “why can’t I see a flickering heartbeat?!”

Her response was: “I don’t see one either. I am so sorry.”

My heart immediately dropped and I felt as I sunk into an infinity hole with no end!

All I remember saying was No, no, no....please no. Immediately after I seen my dr and he said that it had to just happen this morning because the baby has grown to it’s actual date. I will be going back in tomorrow to discuss how to proceed.

I am so devastated and feel so empty that no words can express or come close to describe what this feels like.

This was the last picture taken of my baby today.

My dear baby: I’ve loved you from the moment I knew you were inside of me and always will. 💔🖤💔🖤