Struggling

I guess I’m posting here just to get it off my chest.

I hate being pregnant. I’m 15 weeks and gained over 10lbs. I hate my “bump.” I feel so self conscious. I’m so scared I won’t be able to recover my body after the baby is born. Glow today reminded me that my “bump is getting bigger every day!” And I hated it. I feel so guilty and shameful because I know big bellies mean healthy pregnancy. I feel terrible because I know there are women out there who would give anything to have a bump. I’m 21 and while I decided to have this baby, I feel like I just got confident in my body and felt sexy. I’m so worried it’s all ruined now.