Laying in bed crying

My husband actually had a boner.. but he was late to work also and so I just watched him put on his pants and leave. As soon as he was out the door I just started crying.

I feel dirty like some sort of addict but it’s been weeks and I have needs. It’s honestly making me so depressed. I don’t feel close with him anymore.

He says he really tired from work and he doesn’t want to hurt the baby. I understand that. I’m tired too. I can’t make him have sex with me so I just try to ignore my urges. I miss his body so much I miss him touching me and feeling close with him. I don’t even kiss him anymore because it makes me want more and I know he doesn’t want to have sex right now.

I’m huge and pregnant and anemic. I don’t even remember what it’s like to enjoy my body...