so last year in december, we found out we were expecting but life wasnt working out so we had terminated the pregnancy. i was devasted, i had fallen into a deep dark hole where i was depressed for months. i had quit my job, gained a ton of weight & just stayed home everyday. i had gotten too comfortable being home so i needed to get off my ass finally. i started applying to jobs and whatever but my boyfriend thinks im not trying enough. he tells me i’ve gotten lazy and that he wants me to try more with applying to jobs and calling back jobs and he wants me to gym more with him. when we get into arguments over this, he tells me im wasting his time & that i need to grow up. am i slowly losing him or is he telling me all these mean things because he cares ?