It’s the little things ☺️☺️

I have four children ages 11, 10, 8, and 6. I’m pregnant with baby number five (my last baby) and I’m super excited. I was dead set on only having four children but last year my sister gave birth to my beautiful niece and I wanted nothing more than to have one more baby. My fiancé was iffy at first and not really into the idea but the more he held my niece the more he came around to the idea. He finally said ok and we started trying in August of 2017. We had chemical pregnancies in both October and December but then and January we got our sticky bean. I had HG with all my babies but I was just hoping this one time I wouldn’t and I would have this perfect pregnancy. Boy was I wrong. This is by far thee worst pregnancy EVER! Not only do I have HG but I found out I’m type 2 diabetic having to take insulin injections five times a day with finger pokes four times a day 😩. I don’t have a lot of energy I lost my job and my sex life is pretty much non existent. So my fiancé has taken on ALOT and I feel really bad. I know he’s stressed out and sexually frustrated but he rarely ever complains. He goes to school (due to graduate in September) and works a full time job and sometimes has to do things around the house on my really bad days. It’s really eating me up inside but I really do appreciate it all and I love him with everything I have in me. I haven’t felt like he’s been involved in this pregnancy at all. He’s only gone to three doctors appointments and rarely ever engages in a conversation about the baby. Thee only time he rubs my stomach I feel is when he’s trying to rub a little lower to initiate sex 😂😂. He is really involved as far as the diabetes goes tho. He makes sure I take my injections and tries to make me eat right. Well for the last couple of weeks I’ve noticed that he talks about the baby a little more and calls her by her name. And then last night the best thing happened while I was laying on the couch. He came over and sat next to me and started rubbing my belly and I’m like 🙄 here we go he wants sex but NO he rubbed my belly for a bit and then he kissed her and rubbed it a bit more, kisses me and went back to his side of the couch 😍😍. I was a little shocked 😳 but couldn’t help but smile super hard. Here I was thinking he regretted this baby and thought this pregnancy was making his life a living hell but idk if it’s because she’s almost here or what but I think he’s finally coming around. I know this post is super long 😩. Don’t really expect anyone to read it. I just needed to see my feelings in words 😂. To those who did read it I appreciate it 😘