Ladies I just need to get get this off my chest.

I have been married to my husband for 3 years together for 5... marriage is not easy but I love this man with all my heart!!! Anyways this is not about him it’s about me..

I’m pretty sure I’m the problem when it comes to us having children. I have been to the doctors and they can’t figure out why my cycles are by far from normal... if we were going to be able to have children we should have by now.... anyways long story short I have to walk around and be “happy” I’m going to be becoming an aunt again.... I don’t know how I’m suppose to do this when it hurst and feels like I’m a failure as a woman and have not been pregnant once yet. I know everyone says it takes time when it’s right it will happen... im finding it harder and harder as all of my friends get pregnant and I am there through it all.... now his brother (younger) is having a second child with a second woman... this is by far one of the hardest things emotionally that I have ever had to do.. especially knowing both of his brothers children where “accidental”..... a little back story on brother.. 20 yrs old... living with mom and dad, no vehicle.. still married to first child’s mother but living separately... I’m sorry this is such a long rant I have literally no one to turn to that understands the emotionally destroying feelings..... I’m just looking for any advice and on how to get through these next 9 months with a smile...