I hate what you did to me, after being together for two difficult years where I blindly thought your mean and insensitive words were just part of your personality. Where after you promised you wouldn’t hurt me again then ignored me for days, broke up with me over text because you wanted to sleep around and play video games. Ghosting me, leaving me with no closure. Meanwhile your a damn grown man. Who acts like a child.

Looking back I realized that my ex is a terrible person, I know that’s harsh but he’s done some really messed up things.

I hate how it leaves me feeling insecure still to this day.

Now I’m in a amazing relationship, where I’m respected and loved. Something that I wasn’t used to. I love him so much and so grateful for everything that he’s done for me, and even though I know he wouldn’t do this, a part of me is scared that he’ll do the same as my ex did. Wake up one morning and not love me anymore. It’s been hard lately since my boyfriend is deployed and I haven’t heard from him yet.

I think these thoughts are also linked with my body insecurities too, thinking I’m not womanly enough because I have no curves and have the same body as middle school me. So how could anyone be attracted to me.

It was a hard lesson learned from my ex, but I learned that I deserve to be treated with respect and understanding. Even with my personal issues.