I'll keep it as short as I can - my two best friends want nothing to do with me now that I'm pregnant and it is breaking. my. heart. 💔 These two were both bridesmaids in my wedding and have told me numerous times how excited they'll be when I have babies, how they can't wait until I have a baby, etc.

I thought it would be so different than this.

Friend 1: we used to talk INCESSANTLY every day. The second I told her, poof, she's gone. We suddenly have NOTHING in common. We were both on a weight loss journey prior to me getting pregnant and now, obviously, my priorities have shifted a bit, but I didn't think that meant that we could never speak again.

Friend 2: just told me she needs more friends like her who don't have their life together....I know that the pregnancy hormones are raging but I burst into tears reading that. She goes on to tell me that I don't understand what it's like (to not be married essentially) but prior to this, I knew what it was like to not be married. I was in a. LOT of shitty, abusive relationships prior to my husband. I've been at rock bottom before. I told her although we are not physically in the same situation I can still do my best and offer advice if it is asked of me, but she told me it's not the same.

I have now cried to my husband about this for the past 40 minutes. I'm sorry but I don't think that I should have to be made to feel bad for the positive things that are happening in my life. I'm going thru a lot too, but that never gets discussed, and that's okay. I have pretty moderate anxiety that has only increased with pregnancy. My main concern is doing the best I can with this life that is growing inside of me, and hoping that everything is going well with each day that passes. I am the only one in my friend group for the most part who is pregnant or has kids, but I didn't expect to just not have the support from my friends.

Sorry for the long rant, I just feel like my heart has been ripped out and stomped on tonight 😭 just in need of a friend