Ttc after birth control

Dachelle

Hi ladies my name is Dachelle. So I just got my birth control removed on 12 Of July I had the Nexplanon inserted in my arm and I had it in for three years. I’ve had a irregular periods while I’ve been on it my period will come anywhere form every 4 to 6 months I just had one in May. I bought 50 OPK’s and is getting very frustrating for me because the opk are showing that they’re almost positive but not positive yet and I’m trying to conceive a girl using the shuttles method so it’s very frustrating to me because I don’t know my cycle anymore and I don’t know when I’m going to ovulate and I wanted to get pregnant like ASAP because I’ve been waiting three years for this last pregnancy and that I feel like I’m getting defeated because I every time I use like an app to help me get pregnant and I put in my last Menstrual cycle I was not really give me any information because it’s saying that I’m 25 days late but I just haven’t had one since I’ve took my birth control out but I know that I should ovulate before my first period without birth-control I don’t know it is just frustrating I know I need to be patient because it’s only been like a week without any birth control I don’t know I just need some sort of positive in my life right now. Is this terrible for me to be complaining about it?