Dear the man that ruined my life

We’ve been talking for over three years now but i barely know you. You live across the county so we have to communicate online but you only want to use kik. You hardly ever message me anymore and, In fact, you’re rarely logged into your account. The last time we spoke was over a month ago and I’m beginning to think you found someone better. A more interesting girl that fulfills your need better than I ever could. I’ve thought about you almost every single day. When I’m at the movies I think about if you’d like it and imagine you there with me. When I’m making breakfast I picture you there helping me and teasing me for my awful cooking skills.

I think I picture you at least. The truth is, I have no idea who that man is behind the screen. I have no idea who the man I think I love is. It breaks my heart to think of you with someone else but you don’t know. You have no clue I feel this way. I’ve said I loved talking to you but that’s not all I wanted to say. I choked because what we have is nothing more than a friends with benefits relationship. You only message me when you’re horny. I help you out and then you say you have to go to the gym or go out. You rarely ever stick around to just talk. I know nothing about you. I’ve told you so much. I’ve stripped myself down to nothing and was so vulnerable in front of you. I told you things I’ve never told anyone before and still haven’t. I opened up to you so many times and you helped me every time. I fell harder and harder with each message sent.

When you do message me you’ll come up with an excuse as to why you’ve been gone for so long. I know you have summers off from work so I was hoping to be able to talk to you more but your vacation is halfway over and I’m starting to think you’re never going to message me again.

I saw you on Omegle in the chat section. I was bored and needed to take my mind off of things and I saw you looking for girls to talk to. You used a kik username that was familiar but slightly different. I looked it up like the crazy girl I am and its definitely you. I know its you. You’ve done this before. Remember? I confronted you about it nonchalantly and you made an excuse. You said something about your sister being sick I think. I brushed it off but I’m not stupid.

I know I need to get over you and move on but I can’t. It hurts so much to feel this way about you and you not feel the same. I know I should delete kik and stop thinking about you but I can’t. Every thought I have or anything I see or do is invaded by thoughts of you. You’re ruining my life by not doing anything at all. I see so many happy beautiful couples and I so desperately wish that was us.

Sincerely,

the girl who’s in love with you.