Okay. I dated this man for 2.5 years. I have two boys not his. Turning 13 and 10 July and August.

I was a single mom for 6 years and so content. I thought my boys needed more. You know... the pretty picture. Well I had strict requirements.. never married, no kids, no debt, etc. I failed to ignore all of the red flags. I sold my home January 2017 and I gained equity. He proposed to me March 2017. I said I wouldn’t live together unless married. July 2017 we bought a home together. I used all of my savings(equity from home I sold) and moved in July 2017. Moved the boys in school. He wanted a wedding. I wanted to elope. So I planned. My family sponsored it all. Hurricane Nate destroyed the fairytale yacht club wedding for October. So we wed the day before.

We went on the honeymoon my family also sponsored. Returned to have another wedding November 2017.

He is a narcissist. He beat me down to nothing.

Used me to get the home. Played mind games. Meanwhile he was planning his escape.

I got off of bc after being on for 9 years not ovulating. I went through hell. 31 years old at the time. I’m glad. I’m better now because of it. He left and filed a divorce. Now I’m 13k in debt with attorney fees. He had the police take my vehicle last week. Cut my utilities. I pay half of the mortgage and have since we purchased. He makes 4x more than me.

He’s been decreasing his debt and increasing mine.

I had a realtor last week and I tried to list the house. He wouldn’t sign. I knew he wanted the home.

I can’t refinance and he can now.

I just need prayers.

Mediation is tomorrow. Hearing Tuesday.

I’ve grown so much from this and I haven’t lost hope. I’ll never ignore the red flags again.

If you feel like your world is crushing down... have faith. It will pass.

Oh my grandmother which was like my mom is dying. She’s been fighting cancer for 8 years. The dr told her last week he’s finished with treating her. So now she has hospice and at home. I hate funerals. She wants me to speak at her funeral.

Life and memories is what matters.

The other stuff is just stuff. It’s Satan. It’s clutter. It will not consume me. I can’t plan for the unknown. I’m learning to have peace with it. One day at a time.

Just wanted to share.

It’s only a picture. Not reality

This is my heart. I’ll never let you down guys.