Terrified 😫😫

I’m super terrified of getting my hopes up. I lost my son back in March and today was my expected due date could you believe that?! My period is due tmm and since having my son I’ve always been on time for my period. So yesterday I took these test and idk if I see a line on them or if I’m just crazy🤦🏾‍♀️I’m scared I am pregnant and i might lose my baby again and I’m scared that there’s no line. Last month I took a first response which had some faints but I wasn’t pregnant. I was planning on waiting to see if af showed tmm. I’m just really scared😔

PS: I know one is opened, I felt like I saw a line on it but I opened it not to feel crazy. The top one was not opened at all