Just to vent

Yesterday we lost our baby. Its my 3rd miscarriage and my husband's first. Seeing his heartbreak is so devastating. This was a surprise pregnancy but it was full of love and joy. Something I hadn't experienced with my previous two. We didn't announce our pregnancy, except for some close friends and immediate families. It makes it so hard to break everyone's heart. We are the eldest to our families and this would have been the first grandchild for all grandparents. How am I going to break their hearts? And my MIL is going thru chemo and the only thing that pulled her from her depression was this baby. I dont think we have the strength 💔 Im emotionally drained.