I dont know how to explain how my emotions. Ill try. Im 18 im expected to be someone or something everyday. i want to be me but i cant. I have been taught to be someone else becuase my parent's or parent likes them better. Im 4'9 im treated like child one day and then told to grow up the next day. Im insecure about myself and have bad anxiety everyday now even my friends stopped trying. I feel dumb around my friends becuase the things i "should" know i dont. Pretending to be fine becuase thats all i can do.