I need advice like bad..😞

I’ve never really asked for help I would just cry it out and let it sink in, I’ve always had to be strong for me to have a family and not be alone in life support all the putting down calling names, making me feel less not being able to go alone anywhere alone or with my family, feeling alone the whole time. Hiding the real me what I was, what made me happy, what put a smile

On my face, he would tell me I was his world that he didn’t know what to do with it me, and today I understood that am not. It just an idea I put in my head. He yelled at me today fo going to the store with my baby brother who vapes, doesn’t mean am do it. I hit rock bottom

Today I have no one nor anywhere to go I have no job no friends nothing. I feel

Lost right now I can’t stop crying and asking how did I get here? Why am I letting him treat me like this. I may be stupid like he says. Am a bad wife a bad love I can’t give him a kid after being married for 6 years. Am just a waste of space 😞