Keep going

At the age of 15, I was diagnosed with PCOS the doctor told me it was going to be hard to have children or I might not have them At all. At the time I pushed it aside because I wasn’t thinking about children at the moment. I was the captain of the cheer team I was having so much fun with my life. My Doctor told me to try birth control to regulate my periods. I accepted because my mom was in the room but when I went home I never took them I was getting my period every 2 months so I thought I was ok. Once I grew up me and my boyfriend of 5 years decided that it was time to try. A year passed by and nothing. All my friend were ending up pregnant without any problems and it was crushing me. My period actually stopped coming for that whole year. It was like it wasn’t meant to be. I completely just gave up told myself that god will open my womb when the time is right. I started to pray and I recently just started having regular periods and Now every time I look at the clock it’s 1:11, or 11:11, 12:12, 4:44. It gives me hope that god hears me and my blessing is on its way.