Long story short, I’ve been in hospital for 2 weeks now after an asthma exacerbation. I have a brittle severe form of asthma and it takes my body a long time to reverse itself, I still have 0 air entry to the bottom half of my chest.

This being the case, I’ve been suffering extremely severe pleuritic pain and I’ve been tachy since admission to the ICU of 150. Since out of ICU I’ve still been tachy but only of 120.

I have modified criteria of 120 before they MET call because this seems to be a trend for me, having a fast heart rate.

But in the past 10/20 minutes my pain is moving & changing. My arms and shoulders have become so heavy with muscle pain and the left side of my forehead is throbbing with every heart beat. I’m sweating terribly. I’ve told my nurse this but she refuses to give me my proper dose of pain killers (currently being given 50mg tapentadol every 6 hours when required). She’s only giving me 25mg because she said she wants to help ‘fast track my discharge’.

I’m honestly stuck for what to do, I’d go ask another nurse for help but if I get up I honestly think I’m going to pass out. My heart keeps slowing right down to about 70 then speeding back up again to around 140 and it actually HURTS.

I’ve asked her for the correct dose already and because they did a blood test, ECG and chest xray 3/4 days ago, she isn’t concerned about it being cardiac related. I honestly feel like I’m being punched in the shoulder and chest and winded over and over with every heart beat.

There’s no position I can sit or lay in which relieves the feeling, it worsens with laying down especially on my back so I’m literally just half sitting/laying on my side curled up.

I should probably add that she came in here and also gave me a sleeping tablet maybe 2/5 minutes ago to help me “sleep through it”. Hah.

I don’t even know if she’s allowed to do this but she just gave me 100mg slow release tapentadol, 25mg immediate release tapentadol, 2 paracetamol and a sleeping pill within 10 minutes. Isn’t this totally counterproductive to my breathing? At least my heart might slow down😂😂