I’m about 21-23 weeks pregnant right now. More and more recently my will to do anything, interact with anybody, or wanting to do anything in general is absolutely gone. I basically want nothing to do with life itself and I don’t feel like I’m being listened to when I try to talk about it. I haven’t gone to a therapist only because my insurance doesn’t cover it and I just get too scared to say anything about it to my doctors. I’m constantly pushing how I feel in a negative way onto my boyfriend when he doesn’t listen and gets mad at me when he thinks I’m blaming him. I’ve been trying to keep a journal everyday but it seems to be an every couple of weeks thing. I feel fine when I’m writing in it but the moment I close it and put it down I feel the weight fall right back onto me because I have nobody to share how I feel with. I just don’t know what to do because I honestly feel like I don’t want to live anymore.