Help! Divorced for a few years, now in love

Help.

I have been divorced for a while and have been now in a committed and serious relationship. Unlike my past marriage, this relationship has moved at the right pace and is wholesome and mature. This month we moved in together after a year of conversation. This is a major step as we both want to see how we would be with one another. “You never know someone until you live with them”.

We are a very honest and communicative with one another. He understands both my desire and fear of marriage. We spoke of marriage today in a more serious tone (we do talk about it but it sounded super super serious and no jokes or anything) and I started to stutter, and breathing fast and began to fall into an anxiety attack that he was able to calm me down from. I knew I was traumatized from marriage for sure so Ive been in therapy for a while and thought the trauma was over but today I realized its still persistent.

I got flashbacks from my last relationship. All the emotional abuse and issues came flooding back. Im scared of marriage but I want to marry my current partner.

Anyone thinking of marrying after a divorce? Anyone who left a emotionally abusive relationship in fear of remarrying?

Thank you compañeras