I'm fairly new to sex. I'm about a month in a half and I've probably had sex about 14-17 times. I try to be quit consistent because I hear the more you do other more comfortable it gets. but after a while I've realized that I may have been lying to myself. and what I thought was a good new discovery has really been really uncomfortable and started to get painful after a while during and it was all about my boyfriend getting off. and I've never really had great sex. It was just bearable. and my friend told me that if I don't tell him more of what I want and what I like then it would continue. and I told him yesterday that I'm not enjoying sex to our fullest potential and that maybe we should work on more foreplay or our positioning and angling. and he just told me that we've tried all that and I'm just gonna have to pick a spot where it's least uncomfortable because

his penis is straight (and also kinda big)...

I want sex to be incorporated into my life. but why even bother if I'm getting nowhere with it. I love him but this is a very selfish thing to do

.