Okay so I'm due August 20th with my second baby girl. my first girl is 4&1/2 now and from a previous relationship than I'm in now. everything is great with all that blah blah

anyway so at first I said I'd never have more kids unless I was married but basically I fell in love and he wanted kids and more blah blah. anyway so he has been telling me since about last October that he would propose soon there have been ups and downs with it, he said by January then he says by end of Feb then may then finally he said before she gets here. but considering she could come any day I've felt dispcuraged about it. I have extremely high anxiety issues ( it's crippling at times ) and this whole pregnancy I've been losing my mind with huge crying panic attacks. well the past few days have been BAD. I've felt like he doesn't love me and just allot of crazy shit. I was convinced that I'm right and he is only with me because of the baby and doesn't actually want ME and just been legit going crazy.. so tonight I do a crazy person thing and start looking through his phone ( which he has always left tunlocked ) because last night he was being sneaky with it and I was freaking out because he deleted all his history and I was wondering if he deleted messages.too so I'm full on FBI in this shit. and I end up finding traces.....of an order

to

ZALES

for a fucking ring that will basically be here tomorrow and a sweet ass message attached and I feel like a total piece of shit now for putting him through all this stress and accusing him of not wanting me or loving me and I'm trying not to freak our even more for feeling like a pos 😭😭😭😭😭

sorry for any type os I'm doing this at 2:30 am after crying all night