over it !

am i the only 1 that is beyond over getting their period ? I'm pushing 40 I started when i was 10 😞 . I have an 8 y.o. (via csection) and had a ruptured ectopic 4 years ago since then it has just gotten even worse & i have massive ptsd from the whole situation 👎 ( they had to go in via csection bc i had 3 liters of blood in my abdomen ) . They told me no more babes bc my remaining tube has so much scar tissue from i don't even effin know . Can't take bc bc they all literally make me psycho . iud is out bc eff that possible side effects bs . I've begged my gyn for a hysterectomy and she says absolutely not ( mind you i have a history of fibroids ) . What is the point of bleeding half to death every 28 days if i can't even have more kids ?!