As I write this I have tears on my eyes. I really need prayers. I am the girl who had the dream and left her fiance and then gave him a second opportunity and he only hurted me more. He didn’t changed at all like he said, he was disrespectful and even told me I’m not worth it. Which hurt a lot. It’s been like 2 weeks from that and I know I made the right decision to get him out my life even though I really love him. And now I just can stop thinking of what else I could have done to make it work, or what I did to make him change and treat me the way he did, and trying to find who’s responsible for the failure of my relationship. All i think about is how I could have hurted him, when he was the one who hurted me. And like I said, what I did to make him change.

I’m always sad no matter if I’m alone or surrounded by people. I can be laughing and in a second anything remember me of him and I get sad. I know it takes time but i don’t want to keep feeling like I needed to do more. Because I know i did more than I should and all out of love.

Please just pray for my peace of mind. I’ve been seeking help but please pray with me.