Can’t sleep.

I wish I could just fall asleep. Yesterday the midwife confirmed with my drop in Hcg that I can expect a miscarriage.

I felt weirdly optimistic today. But now that my husbands sleeping I feel lonely and unlike myself. And I feel guilty? For feeling optimistic.

My stomachs been lightly cramping and I have very light spotting. I’m scared of how this miscarriage will go, since technically I’m meant to be 10 weeks but I measured 6w 3 days a week ago at my ultrasound.

I’m finding myself questioning how mentally stable I am right now.

I made plans to go to a concert tomorrow night with a friend but I don’t understand why I did. Shouldn’t I be healing?

😭