I need a girlfriend

Im a house wife and I find my self emotionally alone. My husband us great but hes not very good with feelings i have never been a straight person i have wild fantasy about women all the time. Women are so beautiful and so emotionally available. I want the perfect tri relationship i haven't found a girl willing. To be honest im kinda shy to approach anyone. My husband says you need a girl to be a mushy with you. I want to be bad and have an amazing sexual experience with a feminine female.