I’m 18+2 with my second daughter. I have nothing ready for her and no motivation to do or buy anything for her because I feel like she’s not going to stay on earth with me. My grandma passed on 7/15/18 and a day or two after I had a dream my daughter was stillborn and I woke up bawling. I just constantly have thoughts that I’m going to lose her. Is that normal? Has anyone else had that? I work in an emergency room and deal with death quite often and it doesn’t phase me, could that possibly influence my thoughts? I just don’t know if this is normal.