Spicing things up PLEASE READ ALL

Okay so my boyfriend (or dominant) had a really good, kinky sex all the time. I had the implant in my arm so we really didn’t worry about condoms and things like that. Well, I got into a really bad accident and was rushed to the hospital and when I woke up my Bf kept saying “there was so much blood” while kissing my face and hands and stuff. So the doctor came in and was all like “were you aware you were pregnant?” and I was like WHATTHEFUCK and my Bf was all like “WAS pregnant??” 😭😭 so they told me I lost the baby and I would be good to have sex again when the bleeding stopped. Okay great. Don’t get me wrong I am a fucking mess about miscarrying, but HE WONT TOUCH ME ANYMORE!! He keeps saying that he wants to make sure I’m totally okay and shit like that before spanking me or tying up and pulling hair and stuff. But I just want to be close with him again, like one body. He’s really torn up about the baby.

OKAY NOW FOR THE QUESTION:

How could I kink up missionary sex?? What are some things y’all have tried?? PLEASE LET ME KNOW YALLS STORIES