This month

Today is the last day of my period this month wasn’t mine but hopefully this one coming up will be I’m so confused on how it’s so difficult for me and I’m 17 (please no judgment I will be 18 this November) I just want to know why, like what’s wrong with me I feel so depressed like it’s just not gonna happen for me and I feel as if one day I’m just gonna figure out it can’t happen for me and it hurts a lot to think that cause all I’ve ever wanted to do was to just be a mother and be happy it doesn’t make it any better that I constantly have these realistic dreams of me finding out I’m pregnant or having a baby it just hurts I’ve had a miscarriage before and I just want my rainbow baby but it’s just not happening 🌈💔