Can’t believe my mom didn’t even come!

I had my baby shower yesterday, my older sisters and step mom hosted it. It was so adorable!

I was so nervous for this party because I knew how much work they put in to it. This is my moms first grandchild, and she didn’t even show up. Didn’t call and is now not responding to me. I am honestly so hurt by this. And because she didn’t come my little sisters couldn’t come either. For my whole life I have tried so hard to have a relationship with her but she always does this stuff. She left my high school graduation before it was even over, she didn’t show up when I went wedding dress shopping, and now she didn’t show up to this?! I just feel like I’m over it and I’m not going to try anymore. I do not want my daughter to feel like she’s not good enough for her grandma to show up to life events. Right now I don’t even think I’m going to tell her when I’m in labor. I don’t want to make an emotional decision and regret it later, but damn how am I supposed to feel. I’m just so glad that my step mom has been there for everything and I know will be the best Nana Lynleigh should have.