Enough is enough 🙅🏻‍♀️

I’ve made a vow to myself to end this unhealthy relationship I am in with TTC.

For going on 14 months, I have seen BFN after BFN. I’ve spent hours googling “symptoms” and had how to boost our chances of getting pregnant. I’ve religiously logged daily, on not just Glow, but two other fertility apps (Flo & Ovia), as well.

Has any of this helped me? Nope.

Do I still trick myself into believing I’m pregnant every damn month? Yup.

Do I still cry every single time AF comes? Absolutely.

Not this time, Satan. I’m tired of obsessing. Im tired of crying and I’m tired of feeling like a failure. I’m just going to focus on my studies and try to forget that my cycle even exists.

So, it’s decided! AF is due in seven days and if she comes, I’m going to delete ALL of my apps. For the benefit of my mental health and general happiness, I’m just going to end this toxic relationship for good! It’s the only thing I haven’t tried at this point so...🙋🏻‍♀️🏳️