Help with inlaws

So Im not on good terms with my inlaws but I don’t stop him from talking to them, if anything it’s him. Anyways, how do I deal with thinking and feeling like our relationship is so damaged from all the dramas that’s happened?

I want him talking to his family BUT when he gets off the phone with them he just changes and it just seems to make me depressed and remember everything else.

I’ve forgiven them him and I hope they’ve forgiven me for whatever they’re accusing me off. it’s just like the damaged his family has caused my family and me has left me with anxiety when he talks to them.

He doesn’t stand up for me or my family(we live with my parents to save for our home) he allowed his siblings to drag my name so much & he doesn’t say anything but “ignores them and their calls/texts)

Am I horrible for wanting to think I should leave?

I genuinely feel sick and stressed and have anxiety when his family want something and it shouldn’t be like this. 😭