Pregnancy meltdown over not feeling attached to my baby. 😞

I could really use some encouragement. Let me preface this saying that we were trying to get pregnant and that I think all parts of pregnancy are absolutely beautiful and magical... for other people apparently.

When I first got pregnant I was so excited because we’d been trying and it happened! I didn’t ever get really sick or anything, honestly I’ve had it super easy. I’ve just been tired and not had as much stamina.

The whole pregnancy I kept thinking at “this stage” I’d start feeling like it was real and I’d be attached to the baby. But those stages have come and gone. Hearing the heartbeat, feeling it kick, letting my husband feel it kick.

The further into pregnancy the less excited I am and the less attached I feel. I’m starting to really show and for whatever reason I’m embarrassed about it. Like I don’t want anybody to even know I’m expecting.

I feel like there is just something terribly wrong with me to feel this way. Like now I’ve even gotten to the point that I don’t like the way it feels when the baby moves. Not really excited just kind of annoyed.

I could kind of maybe understand this if this was an unwanted pregnancy, but not one that was planned for years!!

Please tell me I’m not alone. That I’m not a monster. That something will click and it’ll get better and not continuously worse.

I want to be excited, to want to talk and sing to my baby. I just don’t. My husband is so excited, and I feel terrible because he knows how I’m feeling and I feel like he’s kind of worried about me and I feel like in raining on his parade.

Thanks for reading,

One Sad Mama