Today SUCKS!!! 😞😭💔

Today is 2 years since my grandma died. I’m having a hard time with it. The. I go to the bathroom a minute ago, after not having a period for 2 months and being afraid to test and finally telling my husband this morning to bring me home a test after work because I’ve had symptoms, and I am freaking bleeding and cramping. I am so upset. I really thought we had a chance finally after 2 years. I’m just gonna crawl in my bed and cry myself to sleep.