It's been a month..

I found out I was pregnant on July 14th, we had been trying for about 3 years, I found out it was a tuble pregnancy on July 28th..i was supossed to be 7 weeks but my blood work came back as only 4/5 weeks..so on July 28th at 4:02pm I had to terminate in the hopes that sense we caught it early enough that I got to keep my tube..which I did. But tomorrow it will be the 28th of August...and I don't know what to do..i feel like it was all some sick joke...it was hard enough going through the 3 years of waiting to finally get what we have hoped for just for it to be taken from us...I'm so lost...and my SO doesn't really talk about it..its like it didn't even happen...what makes it worse is that my best friend found out she was pregnant 3 days before I found out I was pregnant and our due dates were only 1 day apart..now I'm watching her go into her 11th week and I'm waiting for my period to come so I can get on birthcontrol for the next few months because I can't get pregnant for at least 4 months after I get my first period because of all of the chemo drugs they put in me to terminate...Im falling apart and don't know where else to go...