How can you be excited for your rainbow?

Without being so freaking paranoid the entire time. 😭 I’m trying my hardest to be calm and not anxious, but its so hard. I’m so excited for this rainbow but I am so scared to get attached. I’m very early on so I know anything can happen until my first appt. I had a MMC back in May, had no symptoms, so I’m paranoid with every small cramp or pain.

I know they say this is a different pregnancy and you CAN be excited, but it’s so hard. I want to tell my friends for moral support but I know my husband feels like we’ll “jinx” it if we tell people before it’s “safe”. He’s a very private person and I’m an open book. I don’t WANT to tell anyone yet, but I just feel like I need to talk about it with someone! Ugh 😭😫