Anxiety and Depression

I don’t really know where to start but I just need an opportunity to vent and maybe get advice and know that’s maybe I’m not alone.... First of all, my anxiety has gotten almost debilitating since I got pregnant (I’m 32 weeks now). Not only am I afraid that something will happen to my unborn daughter, Elaina.... I get obsessive about everything that could happen to my family, my house, my pets... if I didn’t work so much, I would probably be too anxious to leave the house by myself. When I do leave, I spend hours in my head worrying about things that could go wrong because I’m not home.... from things like a break in (which actually happened to us recently) to things like “Did I turn off my hair straightener?”. I can KNOW that I turned it off, but this voice in my head says “but what if you didn’t? What if it malfunctions and starts a fire that destroys everything and kills the pets and it’s your fault because you were too irresponsible to turn off the straightener?” I know that sounds ridiculous but I end up obsessing over stuff like that... then there’s the depression... I’ve struggled with it for years now but it’s gotten so much worse. I should be happy, I recently got married, became a land owner and home owner, and of course I’m pregnant with my precious Elaina but I feel miserable... I’m always crying and having huge mental breakdowns. Like, my husband almost took me to the hospital twice within a week because I kept alluding to suicide... which I honestly want but I know I won’t do it while I’m still pregnant. I’m on Abilify but I’m starting to get anxious that it will hurt Elaina and my doctor says I’ll have to stop taking it a month before my due date anyway.. which is just a few weeks away.. I don’t even remember what it feels like to be genuinely happy... I’m getting desperate and scared... I want to enjoy my pregnancy but I can’t seem to get past this... sorry for the lost post. I just needed to get everything out.