I don’t know what’s wrong with me!!!!

I’m 14 and so far My life had been hectic and unusual but I wanted help on my mental health as I’m not sure what to think about it anymore.

I’m almost most the time miserable I’ve had suicidal thought, well I mean I have them (often) and I’ve also self harmed I still do

I am always worried that someone is judging me or thinking bad things about me and I get scared in social situations

I also get really angry really easily and SNAP out at people for no reason (mainly my parents) but I’ve snapped at random times like shout at people please I don’t know what to do any more