Regret

Ladies please make me feel better about my decision 😩 I had recently found out I was pregnant I was messing around with one guy and ended up pregnant . We both had a hard situation he was dealing with his own life and personal problems and so was I so it wasn’t right for me to keep the baby I WANTED IT SO BAD but I had think hard like i will not have this baby and his father won’t even be there for it or won’t want it as much as I did his first babymomma was already putting him through hell ( no they not together ) he just had too much going on . So I ended up having abortion I was already a month and half whole time I DID NOT know I was pregnant I never even had pregnancy symptoms or nothing I never even thought about getting pregnant . Moral of the story is that we had to go through all of that for us to get closer and make a relationship out of it now that’s my boyfriend and we live together and he always telling me I wanna get you pregnant I want u to have my baby and it just really piss me off because if you thinking like that and talking like that now I COULD OF KEPT OUR BABY !!!!! and now is like we constantly try and been trying for months now and nothing works I just really regret my decision I should of still kept it bc is MY BABY in my stomach whether he wanted to be part of it or not I should of kept it I regret it with all my life 😞 so I get on here every morning and see these woman’s results and they great news and i just regret more and more . Was it the right thing to do ?