Ttc, again... :/

April

So, with my first husband we tried and tried and tried and it never happened. Me- unexplained infertility, irregular periods and a history of cervical dysplasia. Him- for lack of a better way to say it, old. His swimmers weren't swimming very well. Anyway, we tried for years. Tried meds and finally gave up. With my second husband we decided to not even try, I had given up anyway.

And now, I'm in the most secure relationship of my life with an amazing man, who wants a baby. I'm still on the fence because I remember how crazy and upset I get when trying. I want a baby with him but I don't want to go thru all the tears and such. :(

Need some advice, baby dust, success stories, anything... please and thank you.