I tried waiting...I’m just tired

So I had a mmc last year and my SO and I have been ttc for a year and a half and still nothing.. i feel like this month is different though. Ive been have consistent headaches and i hardly ever get any (last time I had headaches like this was during my 1st pregnancy last year). 3 days ago a had light pinkish/brownish spotting and nothing since. I tested today and BFN.. af due on Saturday. I am tired. I just want my rainbow baby already. Im trying to stay hopeful, baby dust to all you ladies