is it wrong-kind of long story

my hubby & i have been married for a year. but we’ve been dating for 4 years prior to that. we’ve been through a lot together. we fell pregnant when i was 16. my parents forced me to get an abortion they said if i didn’t get one done then they would “press charges on my bf” i was scared and didn’t want him to get that so of course i listened to my parents. for the longest time i hated my parents and me and my hubby would always fight about me getting the abortion and going “behind his back” bc he didn’t have a say in it. i finally told him how it all went down when i did get it. he told me he was sorry for putting it all on me he would call me “baby killer” etc. but we finally moved past it after all these years. my question is..is it wrong if i get tattoo of my baby in heaven? i was only like 4 weeks prego when i got the abortion. i still think about how my life would be so diff if i didn’t listen to my parents. i would have my little baby here with me. i have a one year daughter now which i am blessed for. but i want a small reminder of my baby in heaven. but i feel guilty if i get the tattoo since the way my first pregnancy ended was in an “abortion”

what do y’all think? please no negative comments. and as for my hubby calling me a baby killer i know that’s bad but we’re past that.