Happy to have that over with

Just finished writing out my goodbye letters in case something happens to me. I know that sounds super melodramatic and depressing, but life is short and the reality is things do happen sometimes. My oldest daughter and I had complications delivering and I shudder to think how things could have gone even more wrong than they did. So when I had my son I wrote out these letters and knowing I had them written out and ready in case something happened to me at least put the ease in my mind that my child would have something from me. That I could say one last thing to my husband. This time around I’ve been wanting to write it out again, but I’ve been putting it off. Not wanting to get depressed. And tbh it always makes me paranoid. But I’m proud of myself and I got them done today. I’m just writing out this post because I have no one else to tell. It would just freak my husband out and my mom..well...same thing.

So yeah. Proud of myself lol.