Chemical pregnancy

I had a chemical pregnancy in June of this year and I guess I didnt want to believe it so I just pushed it to the side and told myself the tests were wrong but last night I put the pictures of the very faint positive tests into an app that turns the picture into a negative so I could see the lines better. Both tests were very visibly positive. I 've never had a positive test before. Im just sad and I feel hurt in my heart. I also feel like I shouldn't be upset bc it was so early 4 weeks 5 days to be exact. Idk i just have a bunch of emotions and I just needed to vent 😢