Nervous about vaginal delivery

I’m a FTM and going to be induced 10/1 if I don’t go into labor before then. Mom and I always shared a love for the beauty of natural deliveries and I grew up watching numerous birthing shows like “it’s a baby story” and “birth day” on TLC. I watched so many episodes of anything birthing related that I felt I could deliver my own baby one day. Now I’m 30 and about to deliver di/di boys and scared shitless. So many things are going through my head like what if I don’t know how to push right or suck at it? Then the fact that I have to deliver in an OR with so many people staring at me makes me feel like I have stage fright as if I’m performing a major role in a play. Will my humanly instincts kick in when it comes to pushing? Will I forget how many people are in the room when I start pushing? Anyone else feel the same way?