I don’t know anymore... help me...

I can’t do this anymore...

He used to be so sweet... but since he’s started work in that big company he’s changed... he started yelling at me, calling me names, he even said I was the biggest piece of shit in the world... he never has time for me... the other day I said I needed at least 20 minutes of conversation a day with him and he yelled at me that he wouldn’t do that, that he has no time for stupid things like that... that work is more important... while today, we said we’d talk at 8:55PM for five minutes... but even so, he couldn’t keep that promise, he had no time for me but still spent 2 and a half hours talking to his mother and made me wait until 11PM when he knows tomorrow’s my first day of school (third year of uni)...

I start to think he’s bipolar or something... sometimes he’s the best... and then he changes completely and hurts me...

He calls me names for the tiniest things and then apologises later... I start to feel like I’m worthless...

He used to be the only person who cared about me and took care of me, and now even he’s letting me down...

I don’t know what to do, I really need a hug right now... if only I had a friend...

I was suicidal when we met (four years ago) even though I looked like the happiest person on earth, he was the one who saved me... and now he’s the one making me want to kill myself... why is he being so mean?... am I really just a piece of shit?...

We’ve been great for three years, he’s been like that for almost a year... Please help me I’m afraid of what I might do to myself