I live really far away from my grandparents on my dads side we use to live near them and they would babysit me and my grandma was low key abusive in my words she would get spoons dip them in hot water and stick them in your skin to burn me if I did not listen she would shove me in a closet and lock it with the closet being full she would not feed me all day and I was to young i did not know how to make any thing by myself so I would starve I never told my parents cause my dad had heart issues and was sick a lot so we were really pore now they moved close to us and i have already have severe anxiety panic attacks and depression and now this has made it a lot worse my when my dad died she went crazy and blamed it on me which I know it wasn't my fault but I still get really guilty about it now that they are back we had to go to dinner with them and I flinched whenever the door opened and was shaking really hard later my step dad told me it looked like I had super bad PTSD he was in the army and knows what super bad PTSD looks like and it's all just stressing me out and I'm starting to break out in hives and this is all make me freak out

My mom know noes a little bit about what happened when they watched me but she does not know the full story

Also I was really clumsy and made up story's about and bruises and burn marks