So me and my sweet husband have been trying to get pregnant for about a year. I’m 20 and he’s 26. We are both so ready for this stage in our life. I have had a feeling that something is wrong for a while now. We have done everything. The ovulation sticks, every other day, you name it. Nothing worked. I decided I wanted to see what was going on because I felt like I should be pregnant by now. Well, fast forward a few weeks and I got into a women’s clinic. I found out I have PCOS. I was devastated. I didn’t understand how I am 20 years old and can’t do the one thing I was put on this earth to do. I didn’t understand why this was happening to me, why I can’t give my husband the one thing he wants more then anything. I feel so guilty that I cannot give him a baby right now and that it’s going to be hard to give him that. Sometimes I feel like it would have been better for him to marry someone else who didn’t have a hard time getting pregnant. It hurts. It hurts when I’m surrounded by friends and family having babies and finding out they are pregnant. To me going home to see af showed up way before she was expected. It hurts to know that my husband tries to stay strong for me when I know he is so disappointed it didn’t happen that month. It’s hard. But now that I know something is wrong we are on the right steps to get there. I have made it to my 3 pills of metformin a day and it was not pleasant getting there. It’s hard because food is comfort to me and if I want a baby I can’t enjoy a root beer that I absolutely love. Or have pasta. There’s days I don’t see the light at the end of the tunnel and there’s days I just want to give up. And I’m not perfect . I’ve had pasta and root beer , but I’m trying. I’m trying to get my little angle here as quickly as possible because I cannot wait to meet him or her. As I’m writing this post I have tears streaming down my face because we are ready. We are ready to be parents and to raise a little one. And it just sucks not knowing when or if it is going to happen. I pray that god blesses me with a child. Because he knows I’m going to be a good mom. I KNOW I’m going to be a good mom. So god, please give me a baby. 🙏